Katy Perry recently opened up about her mental health challenges from 2017. In an interview with a Canadian radio show, Q on CBC, she revealed that she considered taking her own life following her split with boyfriend Orlando Bloom and while she was having poor album sales.

“I lost my smile. I don’t know if my smile was ever fully, like, authentically mine but I was riding on the high of a smile for a long time. Which was the validation, love, and admiration from the outside world, and then that shifted,” Perry told the show’s host Tom Power.

“I had broken up with my boyfriend, who is now my baby-daddy-to-be, and then I was excited about flying high off the next record and the record didn’t get me high any more … The validation didn’t get me high, and so I just crashed,” Perry continued.

The singer went on to say, “It was so important for me to be broken so that I could find my wholeness in a whole different way. And be more dimensional than just living my life like a thirsty pop star all the time. Gratitude is probably the thing that saved my life, because if I didn’t find that I would have wallowed in my own sadness and probably just jumped but I found the ways to be grateful.”

Perry turned to her faith in the midst of her struggle. “Hope has always been adoption for me … because of my relationship with God and something bigger than me. If I’m the only one controlling my destiny of course it’s going to be, like, I am going to drive it into the ground,” she said.

“My hope is that something bigger than me created me for a purpose and created me for a reason, and that I’m not disposable, and that, you know, every person that’s been created has a purpose.”

Perry is doing much better now with her mental health. She has also reconciled with Bloom and the two are expecting their first child together.