Vanessa Bryant, widow of Kobe Bryant, used her Instagam account to express her experiences of grief and loss.

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I’ve been reluctant to put my feelings into words. My brain refuses to accept that both Kobe and Gigi are gone. I can’t process both at the same time. It’s like I’m trying to process Kobe being gone but my body refuses to accept my Gigi will never come back to me. It feels wrong. Why should I be able to wake up another day when my baby girl isn’t being able to have that opportunity?! I’m so mad. She had so much life to live. Then I realize I need to be strong and be here for my 3 daughters. Mad I’m not with Kobe and Gigi but thankful I’m here with Natalia, Bianka and Capri. I know what I’m feeling is normal. It’s part of the grieving process. I just wanted to share in case there’s anyone out there that’s experienced a loss like this. God I wish they were here and this nightmare would be over. Praying for all of the victims of this horrible tragedy. Please continue to pray for all.

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Kobe and Gianna Bryant died during a helicopter accident Jan. 26 in Calabasas, California on their way from Orange County to a basketball game.

“My brain refuses to accept that both Kobe and Gigi are gone. I can’t process both at the same time. It’s like I’m trying to process Kobe being gone but my body refuses to accept that my Gigi will never come back to me,” she writes.

She offers glimpses into the pain of her loss, but realizes that she must remain strong for her three surviving daughters, Capri, Bianka and Natalia.

Vanessa has used the social media platform in the past to post photos from a Jersey Retirement ceremony held for daughter, Gianna Bryant, at her school and to thank the public for their support and prayers. In addition, she has used her Instagram to announce the memorial for Kobe and Gianna which will be held February 24, 2020 at Staples Center in Los Angeles, California.