On Tuesday night’s premiere of the spin off show from 19 Kids and Counting, Jill & Jessa revisit the hard-hitting drama that ultimately caused their first show to be canceled.

‘JILL & JESSA’ RECAP: DUGGERS STILL HEALING FROM SCANDAL

Anna Dugger seemed to be the focus of the episode this week, with her visit to see Josh Dugger while he recovers at a Christian center.

Josh was the center of attention when the story broke that he had molested four of his sisters and a baby sitter in 2002 and 2003, when he was still a minor. The show was eventually canceled. While her husband went away to the recovery program, Anna lived with Jim Bob and Michelle.

On Tuesday night’s episode, Anna is grieving over the lost time with her husband and is nervous to see him. “It’s been about three months and I haven’t seen him,” she told the cameras.

She also recalled how months before, the media had reported on “the wrong choices Joshua made as a teenager” and later, “that Josh had been unfaithful, that he had accounts on websites that were specifically for having an affair, cheating on your spouse.”

“It was feeling like your world instantly just shattered,” she confessed. “How, where, why? All those questions are running through your mind. It was overwhelming.

“After that information was shared, I think there was just this, okay, what do we do from here?”

She also explained how it was both her and Josh’s decision for him to attend the recovery center: “This was a situation that didn’t just happen overnight. It was a long process getting to where we were so we felt that something long term would be helpful and would be the best situation for our family. It’s been good for our hearts to have this time for each of us to get help separately but it’s also been hard.”

Cameras were not allowed into the facility where Josh was but an upset Anna explained how the visit went to her family: “I just got back from visiting Joshua, and he loves each one of you guys very much and is just really grateful for a family that’s willing to talk straight and to grieve when you’ve fallen, but also to love and forgive and have hope. So I look forward to seeing what God has in the future.”

The episode also updated viewers on Jessa and husband Ben Seewald who were taking care of their son who was happy and healthy. It also showed Jill and husband Derick Dillard doing missionary work and caring for their son.

Jill & Jessa: Counting On airs Tuesdays on TLC.

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