Evelyn Lozada’s latest pregnancy tragically ended in a miscarriage that the former Basketball Wives’ star recently admitted was something for which she couldn’t help but feel responsible.

Evelyn Lozada On Her Miscarriage

Lozado found out that she was pregnant with her second child with L.A. Dodgers outfielder Carl Crawford earlier this year. She was six weeks along when her doctor told her that she was pregnant, and all seemed well.

“When I went to my first appointment, everything looked great. My progesterone levels were good,” Lozada told People, revealing that not long after her pregnancy took a turn for the worst. “My hormone levels were dropping.… At my next appointment, my ultrasound went from looking really perfect and beautiful to looking pear-shaped. You could just tell, it didn’t look normal.”

The doctor then told Lozada the crushing news that she would most likely miscarry. Making matters even worse, the doctor could not tell her exactly when she would lose the baby.

“For me the most heartbreaking thing was knowing that it could take up to a day to maybe a week for it to happen,” Lozada said. “I became so obsessed with it. I kept taking pregnancy tests and one would come out positive, then one would come out negative. It was so hard not knowing when I’d lose the baby.”

While coping with the loss, Lozada felt guilty, though she knew that it was nothing that she had done or not done to cause the miscarriage.

“It’s just something that a woman deals with alone. You have a million and one questions in your mind as to what happened. You just feel responsible,” Lozada explained. “It’s nothing that you ate, or did; it’s not your age. One out of all four to five pregnancies end in miscarriage. I have three girlfriends and it’s literally happened to each and every one of them.”

As for whether or not Lozada plans to try for another child with Crawford, the reality TV star says that they aren’t actively trying.

“I’m not checking for when I’m ovulating or anything,” Lozado revealed. “I’m like, look, I’m pushing 40. I’m going to be 50 with a 10-year-old! If it happens again, that will probably be my last.”

Lozado, whose new show Livin’ Lozada will premiere on OWN Saturday, also has a 21-year-old daughter from a previous relationship named Shaniece.

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