Britney Spears, who just released new music with Elton John, uploaded a lengthy account of her experiences being forced into an over 13-year conservatorship that ended last year.

She also spoke about more alleged abuse at the hands of her father Jamie Spears, who took a chilling amount of control over her life.

Spears said in the long audio clip, which was posted and then deleted from her social media accounts, “I do think I’m in a place now where I’m a little bit more confident, that I can be willing to share openly my thoughts and what I’ve been through.”

She reflected that she was “extremely young,” only 25 by her recollection, when the conservatorship began. “I honestly still to this day don’t know what really I did, but the punishment of my father I wasn’t able to, you know, see anyone or anything, and you have to imagine none of it made sense to me.”

Spears told a story about how she attempted to get prescribed her medication by using a British accent on the phone.

“Three days later, there was a SWAT team in my home, three helicopters. And I remember my mom’s best friend and my two girlfriends, we had a sleepover the night before, and they held me down on a gurney,” she recalled.

Spears claimed her mother told her “people are coming here today” before the ambulance incident.

“Then four hours later, there were over 200 paparazzi outside my house videotaping me through a window of a ambulance holding me down on a gurney,” Spears said.

She claimed this was a “premeditated” setup.

“A woman introduced the idea to my dad, then my mom actually helped him follow through and made it happen,” Spears added. “There was no drugs in my system, no alcohol, no nothing, it was pure abuse, and I haven’t even shared reallhy half of it.”

The popstar claimed that her father “loved” having control over her life and alleged that he said early on in the conservatorship, “‘I’m Britney Spears and I’m calling the shots,’ and I’m like, ‘allrighty then.'”

She also added that her father was “really abusive” to her brother while he was a young football player.

She spoke about having to go through acting commitments like a supporting role in How I Met Your Mother and recording her album Circus soon after “two weeks of being hospitalized and completely traumatized out of my mind.”

Spears also recalled “I was told I was fat every day, I had to go to the gym, and I never remembered feeling so demoralized, and just they made me feel like nothing.”

Several albums and a many-year Vegas residency later, Spears said, “My performances I know were horrible … I was just like a robot, honestly, I didn’t give a f––k anymore.”

She described the experience as “this conspiracy thing of people claiming and treating me like a superstar, but yet they treated me like nothing.”

She said she got some “spark” back when recording her album Glory, but she was still scared to resist the conservatorship further.

She also revealed that she was forced to be institutionalized after her residency ended, allegedly just because she refused to do a certain dance move.

She also said her father threatened to take her to court if she didn’t comply and told her.

“I have way more people on my side than you, you don’t even have a lawyer,” he said.

Reflecting on her familial abuse, Spears later said, “How did they get away with it? And what the f––k did I do to deserve that? I couldn’t even smoke cigarettes, people on death row smoke cigarettes.”

Spears credited “word of mouth” and “My fans knowing by heart that something was up,” with the surge of discussion of her abusive conservatorship beginning in the last couple of years that became the Free Britney movement.

She remembered being thankful for the fan support, but also added, “My sister and my mother aren’t doing anything. To me it was like they secretly honestly liked me being the bad one.”

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