Billie Lourd Opens Up On 7th Anniversary Of Mother Carrie Fisher’s Death

Carrie Fisher died on December 27, 2016, from a drug overdose on a flight from London to Los Angeles. Although she was sent to the Ronald Reagan UCLA Medical Center, she died only a couple of days later at age 60.

Her daughter, actress Billie Lourd, shared a post on Instagram reflection on her mother’s seventh anniversary of her death. 

Lourd honors her mother on every anniversary. 

The post consisted of a photo of Lourd and Fisher when they were younger, sitting down and buried from the waist down in the sand. Lourd shared her feelings in the caption. 

“It has been 7 years since my mom died (but who’s counting?? Me I guess?),” she wrote. “Every anniversary brings a different iteration of my grief. Some infuse me with rage, some make me cry all day long, some make me feel dissociated and empty, some make me feel nothing, some make me feel guilty for feeling nothing, and some make me feel all of those things all at once.”

She wrote about her grief and how it affects her life, giving an example of when she felt her mother’s presence while Lourd was holding her daughter, and she “welled up with tears of joy.”

“I laughed at myself then cried more ’cause I was laughing,” she shared. 

She ended the note by writing, “I miss her every day, but the cliche is also true – she is with me every day – she infuses my joyful moments with even more joy. As I tell my son, she lives in the stars – and she damn sure makes my life sparkle. Sending my love to all my griefers out there. And hoping everyone can feel a little sparkle of griefull among all the feelings grief inevitably brings.”

The comment section was full of supporters, including celebrities like Lily Collins.

Lourd has become an “obsessive Star Wars” fan following the death of her mother, who played Princess Leia in the films. 

She spoke of the importance of the character for her family and others, saying that she has “passed the torch, or in this case, lightsaber, onto my two children, Kingston and Jackson. I feel so lucky that even though they won’t get to meet my mom, they will get to know a piece of her through Leia, and I will get to tell them that the little lady in the TV is my mommy, their grandmommy. Leia has become like a family heirloom and not just for my family. I’m not unique. I went to a Star Wars Celebration last year and saw mothers and daughters, and even grandmothers were still dressed up like Leia, even though my mom wasn’t there, and I got to talk to hundreds of people about how much my mom meant to them.”

Lourd recently helped honor her late mother at the unveiling of her star on the Hollywood Walk Of Fame.