Disparaged 'Today' Host Ann Curry: 'Am I Not Good Enough?'

With reports that Ann Curry will soon lose her hosting gig on NBC's Today show after a ratings battle with ABC's Good Morning America put her neck on the line, Curry is talking candidly about her inner demons.

"It's hard not to take it personally," Curry told Ladies Home Journal about being cast in an unfavorable light. "You worry, Am I not good enough? Am I not what people need? Am I asking the right questions? When people say negative things or speculate, you can't help but feel hurt. I know NBC pays my salary but I have never doubted who I work for. I think about the people who watch. They're the ones who matter to me. I want to feel I haven't dropped the ball when it comes to them."

Curry, who has worked at Today for 15 years, added what plagues her is something to which many women can relate. "I don't always understand my worth. I think it's a chronic condition for women," she said. "I'm not talking about professionally. I'm talking about in our personal lives. We constantly punish ourselves with degrading thoughts when we look at ourselves in the mirror. We allow people to treat us poorly, we allow our husbands or boyfriends to get away with things or we have relationships with girlfriends or colleagues who don't treat us well. We don't defend ourselves as we would our own children. Women have demanded and gotten better jobs and more power. But the one thing we deserve is a better relationship with ourselves. We waste too much time beating ourselves up. I think at my age of 55, it's time to stop doing that."